Holy shit it has been a while. Almost a year. Every now and then I get in the mood to write something, and then just put it off until eventually I lose interest. Have I even posted since the move? I don't know!
This holiday season, I went to my father's place in Pennsylvania, saw their house for the first time, and met Roosevelt. We were there two full weeks and a day (it was supposed to be a day less than two weeks, but airlines are assholes and liars). When I got back Betsy looked so weird. Roosevelt is a Golden Retriever as well as Betsy, but god damn. I know Roosevelt is only about 10 weeks old, but then going home and seeing Betsy she seemed fucking huge. Especially her nose. It weirded me out to the point where I briefly considered that she was replaced, but then I realized that was fucking stupid, and I really needed some sleep. Overtime I've gotten used to it, but she still looks weird. I found a picture from like a year ago, and it looks like what I remembered. I guess the slow changes were normal to me at the time, but when I was away from her for long enough my mental image of her regressed to when she was a bit younger, so when I got back she looked terrible.
I thought it was sad at first, for my last stretch of time with this dog to be me thinking of her as slightly odd and not what I remembered, and I thought I might hold it against Roosevelt. However, as I was typing this I realized that my memory of her younger is a good thing. When she is gone I will remember when she was younger, at least somewhat younger. Back when Niko was alive and we would go on walks daily. Before her left eye got fucked up. Speaking of Niko, I don't remember him as when he was laying on the couch unable to move (how I last saw him), but I remember when he was young and full of energy. I always thought the mind would remember the low points, they seem to last better for everything besides dogs. But now I see maybe with dogs (and perhaps any people you get close to), you remember them in a positive light, when they were full of energy and happy.
Speaking of Niko (once again), we watched a new episode of Family Guy last night. Brian got a brain-tumor and got dumb. During a commercial break Mom mentioned seeing a tweet with a picture of a dog staring at a wall, and warning that if you see your dog do this to take them to a vet immediately. We already knew this, now that we had experience with Niko, but I thought I should mention this here. When I started this I imagined someone stumbling upon it, and realizing my inner-genius or some shit. Now most of it is just my stupid ramblings and it would be rather embarrassing if it got out, yet I keep writing now. Maybe it is because the danger makes it fun, or this site is (surprisingly) a reliable place to store this stuff that I can find whenever I need to. It has been a year since I've posted and I just googled "y2fn" and found it no problem. Anyway, the point is, someone may someday find this, and that dog thing is important information. So in case anyone does stumble upon this, you now know that if your dog is just staring at a wall unmoving, something is wrong and you need to take him/her to a vet. Get your knowledge where it is given to you.